Recently

Quite lazy for these days, the project stoped. I need direction! First time to be team leader, set example for team mates is hard for me. My poor little confidence is weaker and weaker...

Che Guevara is a typically foreigner in my mind. He is open minded. Once he thought out a plan, he is gonna to make it without doubt. Like the trip north to Guatemala. I need the confidence and courage like his. I found I need various experiences. Che has quite a lot of experiences from his jobs and trips. I am growing too slow, I need various exciting things to fullfit my life. I don't wanna to waste my limited life!

despaired again

My girl's little shop was opened finally. I am glad and happy for her. And wish the shop will earn a lot of money. But the shop is not all belonging to us, also another 2 guys. We share the shop, we are partner. But I hate the girl. The other one is really good at such business. I feel I am useless. I feel despaired. What can I do in the fucking future......I wish there are some special events happened on me, whatever good or bad events, make me changed all over from the buttom to head......like ...phoenix~