despaired again

My girl's little shop was opened finally. I am glad and happy for her. And wish the shop will earn a lot of money. But the shop is not all belonging to us, also another 2 guys. We share the shop, we are partner. But I hate the girl. The other one is really good at such business. I feel I am useless. I feel despaired. What can I do in the fucking future......I wish there are some special events happened on me, whatever good or bad events, make me changed all over from the buttom to head......like ...phoenix~